And that's not just the answer I gave a friend last night when they asked what I do for a living. It's not just because of my bullshit job. Its not just because of the pathetic paycheck I bring home that doesn't pay the bills. And its not just because I'm not doing what I want to do, not living the life I want to live, though those are all contributing factors.
I haven't gotten a hair cut in over a month now. I only left the house twice all weekend, and one of those times was to sit doing the same thing in someone else's place. I seem to have lost all focus, all drive, all direction....
And that's still not why I'm a bum!
"I coulda been a contender. I coulda been somebody, instead of a bum, which is what I am, let's face it"
And its true. I'm one of those jerks that people can't stand, one of those that can do pretty much anything once you show them how a time or two.... and I've done nothing with it. I'm so much more than what I've become....
And that's what makes me a bum.
Maybe you're in the same boat, I don't know. I can't speak for anyone but myself. There's nothing worse than wasted talent. So in that frame, I quess I'm the worst. I told you I'm a horrible human being.
And maybe I need to be a bum for a while. Maybe its good to accept where you're at. Maybe I need to chill out, not push so hard, then I can really see where I need to go next.
So of course, just this weekend a big picture item hit my mind. Its an insane idea. A huge one. The type of thing that changes the world.
And its something I have to do.
There are so many things I'll have to accomplish to get it done. Its going to take a lot of time. Its going to take a ridiculous amount of money.
For every level of success you have to become a new person. I'll need a total overhaul. I'm going to have to eat lightning... crap thunder....
But I've got three more weeks in this cast. And then rehab. I need some inspiration. I need a muse.
I guess I grew up a Disney kid, blame my parents for that, and probably 5 sisters.... but it made getting into Once Upon A Time. Its a really well written show. So I watching it last night a thought kept coming to me, bringing me back to something I truly believe...
Lana Parrilla plays the evil queen, and she's so good at being the absolute worst person you ever met in your life that I just can't believe that she isn't really that way in real life also. Its a theory I've been going on for some time now, that if a certain behavior just rolls off naturally for someone during pretend time its because they're so comfortable acting that way that it must be a part of them. If you want to know what its like to chill with Charlie Sheen, just check him out in Navy Seals. That's him! He's playing himself in there, gotta be.
The thing with the Evil Queen that fucks me up though is that I'm kind of into her. She's good looking enough, has something about her I find sexy, and if the internet is right (and it always is!) there's a flik floating around out there where she bares herself. What worries me is that what I find sexy about her is that she comes off as such a Thundercunt! That could explain a lot of things.
Speaking of actresses that love to take it all off, Anne Hathaway is getting hitched. Right there is a perfect example of how you need balance to everything, even the sexy, or you'll lose it. Now, to say that she isn't sexy is just damn ridiculous, but now I've gotten so used to seeing her naked in everything she's in that its nothing special to me anymore.
And that's the danger of the naked game. We all want it the first time, but once we're used to it, you're going to have to find a new trick to get people going, even when its boobs. And an actress who sells herself on sexy that can't get you into it anymore is in trouble.... time to release a sex tape.....
But she's getting married now, and what's sexy about that for the millions that want to nail her? Could be a step down is coming.
There's Demi Moore. Sexy? I don't know.
One thing for sure though is that some questions are answered loud and clear. A few weeks back I had put up a post using the 2011 Playboy Playmates, but saying nothing really that had anything to do with them. That one post accounts for nearly 20% of the five thousand plus times this blog has been read. Its all about the ladies.
But that answer brings up a new question, looking at that Demi Moore shot again, then to this one up above..... even the young ladies, how much are these photos airbrushed (heh, airbrushed) to make them look like that?
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